why i loved that man?

well,failasoof pointed out something i havent noticed till now,of course not all men are pigs my father is a great man and loves my mum alot and treats all women with respect without being sleazy,that was the first male figure i knew in my life then i went through all sorts of ass holes starting the age of 12 (you could say i was an early bloomer *coy smile*) and i was begining to lose all faith and hope in finding a decent guy who loves me for who i am and accepts all my weird actions and thought (YES,i was never expecting prince william to show up at my door,i was never into finding a prince charming sort of guy)

and BAM, it happened,we met and fell in love instantly without even realizing that,now 3 months into the relationship and the only thing am proud of at the moment is him.

why?


i thought he was my closest friend ever,knows how i feel without me saying it,goes to great lengths to make small things he knows will make me happy,listens to me when i bitch about anything and then stops me when i beging to turn into a Man hating female robot,he loves for what i am and pushes me to be the best i WANT to be.oh,he treates like an equal too (mentally at least,let's face it:he picks up the check and pulls the chair for me and get irritated if i talk to the waiter-which i find cute by the way)

what i want to say is am proud of those 3 months i spent with him coz during them he did bring out the best in me.
that was more than enough.Don't u think?

btw,i haven't forgotten my friend ,i will write the rest of the story in due time and announce my course of action,wait for it.

the month of growth

i apologize for disappearing lately
alot has happened that i didnt want to go through but i owe it to my self and the people who love me to talk about it
so let's see
monday the 6th of november,i wrote my blog from work then i quit
why did i quit?
well, my reporting manager made a move on me and no one believed,i was traumatic for more than a week but I'm ok now coz i know if the company tolrates this kind of behavior then it's not worth working for.
i also realized that this happens on a daily basis in egypt but goes unnoticed and unspoken of.

why???????????!!!!
i encourage every girl to take action if that happens,if u cant legally sue the son of a bitch then tell the story to others,at least that will make his life a living hell which he deserves,and remember,if anyone hits on you,it's NEVER ur fault.

will be back,have so much more to say

and please if u know anyone who has been harrassed at work encourage her to write to me,i will always be there to listen and find help for those who need it.girls stick together,right? :-)

now i know

so i spoke with the mum.......

let me take u back to my friendship with her

we were gym buddies who turned into really good friends,she spoke like 5 different languages which made her land a dream job at the age of 21
i got a knee injury and couldnt work out anymore but i still saw her all the time
anyway, one day,she went to the gym around 7 am (her favorite time of the day) and were supposed to meet after work but her phone was off all day,as i said before she was distant when i met her later and remained that way for 10 days before telling me she was going to the us to get a diploma and was leaving in 3 days

she comes back from the US after 3 weeks and is frail,weak and so depressed

10 days later she dies "of natural causes"

the mum's story was this:

she said that D (my best friend) was walking to the gym and the last thing she remebers that she was walking past one of those big white delivery vans and she wakes up 3 hours later bleeding, sore with 3 broken ribs and a severed vagina outside the van,she is taken to the hospital....................

let me stop here for a second to tell u in case u havent noticed,she was multi RAPED ...to be continued....the tears-anger mix is blinding me

Do I want to know?

so today the story continues,a friend of mine reads the blog and volunteers to remind of the story of a another friends who died "of natural causes" two years ago.
turns out she didnt die of natural causes like we were told. i cant say i was shocked,i remember that week when she died....she disappeared all of a sudden and her mother called us all one morning to ask us where she were,we started this search all around maadi,and 2 hours later her mum calls and says she is back and that she's ok ,and that "she lost her mobile and was filing a report at the station " so we call her later that day and no one answers,we call the next day and no one answers,anyway,we meet her like 10 days later , she's pale, distant, silent and says she's tired and has to go home,she disappeares for a week and boom....she's dead.

i have to say something was fishy at that time but we were overwhelmed by the pain of her death that we just didnt dwell on it.

turns out the mother was encourged by my blog and decided to tell me the real story behind the death of our beloved friend......

am seeing her in an hour,the question is,do i really want to know?


do i?