what to do? my plan

i want to avenge every woman who has been mistreated in any shape or form but i cannot do that on my own,am on the verge of creating a day of celebration of all the woman who sacrificed or have been sacrificed to keep our societ intact (something who hasnt worked so far)

so please spread the word
i need all the stories and all the situations u have been through or saw as guys and girls,they will all be publishes in a special book that i will edit myself and it will also contain info on what do if u r mistreated or abused in any form
this is important
just copy and paste what i said and forward it as much as u can
please

help me make a small difference on how we see ourselves and how society sees people our age

my biggest fear part I

i have learened lately that my biggest fear is survival,i fear losing the battle against those to claim i cant do what i want to do,i have so much to say,just letting out my feelings bit by bit.
Will be back

visiting the grave,A CRY FOR HELP

i most confess that cemetaries interest me,i like that sheer peace u find there,i can swear that if u go to a grave yard and hang out there for a while and listen closly u can actually absorb the wisdom of generations and people that are long gone,u can find stories just by reading the headstones,u can tell what kind of a family the departed left behind.

i used to go every now and then to visit my grandparents' grave and just sit there and talk to them without uttering a single word,it felt like home some way.

i had never gone to a graveyard that belonged to some one who wasnt related to me.today it's 2 years since she died and i found myself going to her graveyard.

i knew her family dont go coz of the emotional issues behind it.and i thought she must be feeling lonely,i took my MP3 player coz i remembered how she loved metallica and had said before she died they made her feel at peace and i wanted to give peace to her even though i knew she cant listen to me then i talked and i talked and i talked for hours

i told her everything i felt about everything,
i told her about the ex boyfriends and my current lover,i told her that my knee is finally cured and that am on a diet to get back into shape
i told her about the current fashions and music and even the britney spears drama going on these days,
and i told her how much i loved her and how much she means to me,i told her how lonely it gets here without her roaming the streets of maadi with me

i told her how much it depressed me that she didnt call me on my birthday like she used to
and i told her about the rape,i attacked her and said that she should have said something,she should have came and cried into my arms and we would have found a solution for it,i told her that i know that the assholes killed her that day long before she killed herself

yes she did overdose on anti depressants and pain killers

i dont know what she went through and it pisses me off but i left today feeling stronger knowing she is at least safe where she is


i wanna do something
the only thing i can do is write
so am asking all of you out there
please tell me all the stories
all the hopes
all the anger
ask ur friends to bring me real stories about what they went through
be it harrasment,abuse or rape
speak up
i will gather all ur words and print them in a book that will also contain information on what do if u or someone u love is abused in any form
please help me,maybe we are on the verge of a revolution here.
maybe all of you will get to be a part of something so great and so important
please help for ur sake and for whatever reasons u have
just help